Up's Tears, Down's Tears

I cried twice today.

Once from overwhelming sadness for my father's grief at the loss of his mother, and once when my doctor called to say that I'm pregnant.

They were very different tears.

Yes, my official test came back positive. Any number over 100 is considered great. Mine was 241.

Let's just hope whoever's in there sticks around for a while.

Bust

About a month ago, I went lingerie shopping and bought myself six new bras. Three are basic black, but two of them are pink, and one has a leopard pattern -- the one I love wearing most of all.

For a while there, I was bummed that getting pregnant would mean that my boobs would engorge, and I wouldn't be able to wear any of them anymore, but judging from the negative home tests I've been getting, this isn't anything I have to worry about.

What a relief.

Getting Testy

I took a home test this morning. It was negative.

Naturally I got pretty bummed out, but then I Google-stalked every woman who's ever peed in the history of sticks, and I accumulated a 6-point plan of rationalization for why I should stay hopeful. It is:

1. Testing 7 days after a 5 day transfer (7dp5dt) is still early
2. I had just peed 5 hours before my test, which didn't allow enough time to let the hCG hormone build up in my urine
3. I drank 12 gallons of water last night, and my pee was way too diluted
4. Turns out, I miscalculated, and I'm actually only 6dp5dt
5. Apparently frozen embryos take longer to implant than fresh embryos, so my positive wouldn't show up until after others'
6. If you think about it, my transfer wasn't until 1:30pm, which means that 7:30 this morning was actually still 5dp5dt, which really is too early, even when you aren't searching through Google's entire caché for flimsy evidence to support your mania

Speaking of mania, I have 3 more sticks to pee on. Stay tuned.